nickyut

moving to auburn!
i decided today that im moving to aburn once im finished with school. ill (hopefully be able to) stay with my dad until i (hopefully) get my job back at wheeler's so i can save up some money for an apartment. i cant wait to be back home, where everything is, except for you, but your coming too i hope.
all my friends are in auburn/lewiston, and i know a lot of people around there. a lot of people i know that live in that area dont like it there. oh today i found out that some guy got stabbed to death in bonnie (bonny?) park! i walk through there every day when i go there!
the twin cities are becoming more and more overrun with bad shit, drugs (not complaining) and more scum, but its home. familiar. my dad's house is nice. nice neighborhood with pretty nice people.
ill be able to get a small apartment for not too much money, which i can stay in while i save up for more great things.
im pretty sure ill be seeing crystal castles again in july which will be fucking awesome. quebec is the closest they're playing an underage show, which sucks but ill make an adventure out of it! they're also playing in montreal and toronto. i might go to the montreal show, depending on how much it is.
*update*
seeing them in PA hopefully, cause its cheaper. hopefully we can get the money. its the 21st so idk.


"Well, laughter pours from under doors
In this house, I don’t understand that sound no more
Seems artificial, like a T.V. set

I remember everything
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you painted blue and glued with jewelry tears
Something about those bright colors
would always make you feel better

You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you’d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?

And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings
As my fingers press onto the strings
In yet another clumsy chord
Haligh, haligh, an awful lie
This weight would now be satisfied
I'm gonna give you only one reply
I know not who I am

But I talk in the mirror
To the stranger that appears
Our conversations are circles
Always one sided
Nothing is clear

Except we keep coming back
To this meaning that I lack
He says the choices were given
Now you must live them
Or just not live
But do you want that?"
bright eyes.


"and i try to write with style. but the words just come and i write em as soon as i see em."
manchester orchestra.

so we arrived at the big house with lots of people and ate the little white squares. i had one and you had two and later we split another (soddy madia). craziest night of my life:


rarin ta go?!


being a chimp.


hahaha <33333333333333333333333333333333863874638974903578932940534 XD


hey whats up taylor! quiet down please, we're trying to have an important convorsation. mmyezzz manewwwuh. lawlz


stackin em tall stackin em tall stackin em tall stackin em tall! someone stole my WHOLE HALF A PACK I WAS RIP SHIT! oh well, my fault for leaving em on the floor with the bad people around (you know who you are).


favorite. hahahaaa! best.


many thanks to this dude for hookin it up!

it's monday. normally i'd come home with a bag or a bottle, or something to get me through the week, but this week i have nothing! i found out that my last day of school is monday, so that will make this week go by much faster i think.

its time to trip!
ill make my way down to hanaford after school today and do what i gotta do, and tonight will be a blast!

here's what im currently working on in school: Mira
my choice for senior paper. 7 pages, size 12, double spaced.
once i finish that, i'm done! except for plato of course.

second block starts now!

just scroll over the link and a little media player will pop up to the right! how convenient!
or if you want to download a track, just right click, save link as...
you knew.

red nose day, soft porn, people who clap when planes land, and fuckin bono are all bollocks says jack beats in his rework of trip's "who's that."
Trip - Who's That (Jack Beats rework)

now when someone interrupts you to ask what your listening to on your ipod, you can reply, "fukkk offf!"
Fukkk Offf - The Bottom
coup'la nice distorted, ditry-electro reworks:
The Dance Inc - The Boy Who (Fukkk Offf rework)
Maral Salmassi - Fire Gem (Fukkk Offf rework)

i fuckin love this stuff! gallons of french blood marches through my veins, so i must post some tracks from:
Stereoheros - Moon Knight
Stereoheros - Boom Slang
Stereoheros - Fin Fang Foom
Stereoheros - Washout

done for now.

lurhfierkfdhbvsdfhsd! at the bus station again. today is sunday, the worst day of the week. no jenny untill next weekend. a week is far too much of a wait. school ends in ten days and im rarin ta go! after school i plan on getting a new job (just finished at wheeler's last sunday) to save up for an apartment in either brunswick, auburn, or lewiston, (with you, cuss!) or somewhere else, we're not 100% right now. i'll probably save up untill november, when i'll have my license and ill be done with school.

oh yeah, i have about 40 hours of shit to do on the computer for english before i can graduate. yeah, its called Plato English. i've already gotten 45 hours of math done on that, which gives me a whole math credit! pretty good, considering i got baked every time i went and faked it by typing in random shit and clicking next, next, next. haha! that gave me more time to get better at ffr, make beats, search through endless amounts of music blogs (thanks melissa), and look up tons of stuff to add to my brain. so now im on math, and im guessing i have about 4 or 5 hours so far.

anyway, after we've gotten a place, we'll start saving for our first destination. we plan on going everywhere, seeing everything, and doing all there is to do in the big world, which i can't help but explore. i dont see how people can just settle down in one place and not go see what else there is! i guess i've always been curious and adventurous, willing to try new things. pretty much anything! i'm glad i found the perfect girl to share this all with! i couldn't do it withouthcu. <3

quincy market


that golden pirate lady is real! she didn't like to talk or move much...


<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333!!!


prettygooot


ILYSM!!!


cutest.


takin a pic


best!


our spot


ily :]


we tried.


the spot


the spot


the spot


BEHHHDSSS! (museum of science)


birdman


behhdz


ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! misqueet!


dinos


sneakin a peak


BEST!!!


sh4k3 1t l1k3 4 s41t sh4k3r


we finally decided on clam chowder. there was the best cook ever!


weirrrrrrrrrrrrd man.


anddd here we have some large glowing balls that look pretty cool.


trying to make a massive glowing force of energy with all my skin.


!!!


im so excited right now i cant beleive im standing in front of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!


last minute night shot.


last second night shot.

some songs that deserve to be listened to over and over:

M83 - Teen Angst
Crystal Castles - Courtship Dating
Boys Noize - Lava Lava
Boys Noize - & Down
Justice - Waters of Nazareth (Erol Alkan Rework)
Surkin - Next of Kin
 
more later.

school is almost over which is good because i cant take anymore of it. i finish with day school in a couple weeks and then i only have to finish about 40 hours of english at night and i finish high school! i dread weeks and only look forward to weekends which are always the best of times. lately the weeks have consisted of getting baked and putting of homework to create digital music upstairs or sit in my room wasting time. for some reason, things get to me more than usual lately. I only get to see you during the weekends, which makes me crazy. i usually stay positive and busy during the days but when the night comes, so does everything bad. things will be better soon though. we will be living toget and things will be goot.

<a href="http://h1.ripway.com/mikerog11/M83-TeenAngst.mp3">M83 - teen angst</a>